called

The sun has come out

My eyes adjust

its been so dark

so cold

so blah

today feels like things are easy again

something seems to have clicked

my body is feeling stronger

my mind feels more focused

my spirit feels renewed

It feels so good to be here

a place to rest for a sec + reflect

Looking back to the times

where I doubted myself

where I thought I might be crazy

where I thought no one would want to hear any of this

where I was alone in my discomfort in the world…

when I found rainbow gatherings in 1991

I knew I found a piece of the puzzle

i wasn’t crazy

there was a whole community below the surface of society

Where you could be whatever you wanted to be

Where people would hold space for you to really express yourself authentically

I found out other people received information like i did

i met shamans + brujas + oracles + wise ones

who all told me that although I was very shiny

+ able to get what I want…

I needed to deepen my journey

that I was called here to be of service

i then realized so many things all at once

it flooded my brain

images of myself as an older woman

images of me talking to large groups of people

me in celebration with my community

it felt so real

so raw

my higher self integrated so much more fully

i knew I needed to

TRUST HER

COMMIT TO HER

RECOGNIZE MY BODY AS A TEMPLE

+ TREAT IT AS SUCH

my activation into sacred service was short

With a very LONG integration {I’m still manifesting things I saw that day}

i was immediately taking action + manifesting

Attracting to me:

books

teachers

Enlightening experiences

opportunities of a lifetime

synchronicities I could no longer deny

as soon as I trusted + committed to my growth

+ assumed responsibility for my emotions

the universe showed up for me

supported me

nourished me

revived me

restored me

I see how every experience I’ve been through

has brought me to this moment in time

Where I am being called to help others do the same

so that we can raise the vibration of this planet together

i am the magnet that will attract the ones who need my help

me just being me

sharing my journey

being brave

authentic

visible

And I am so grateful

Blessed be.

and so it is