Letting go
Of my expectations
I now realize I’ve had so many
I am stuck in a cycle between
what I think I should do
What I’ve worked towards
What I’ve already created
And what makes my heart sing
What is safe
What feels expansive
And what calms me the fuck down instantly
My desire for freedom
Overwhelms my work ethic
Exhausts me immediately
Commitment drains my excitement
My drive to share
To assist
To lift up
It turns me inward
A spiral of resentment
That I must recognize
Or else it eats my soul
